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8/52 Portraits – BFF’s 4ever

Your Gang is the theme of the 8th of my 52 weekly portraits.  My gang consists of me and my BFF, Rebecca.

I’m a solitary soul, but one day about fifteen years ago I met a vibrant, incredible woman. I was filling a position in my department and I hired her. Within a week we knew we were soul sisters. Rebecca and I worked together at Cal State Bakersfield for 10 years even when one or the other of us changed offices we gravitated back to the same office pretty quickly! (we started in the Dean’s Office of Natural Sciences and Mathematics and ended up in the Dean’s Office of Arts and Humanities) We were known for our laughter echoing through the halls. I retired and left town four years ago. This winter since I’m back in Bakersfield, we’ve been able to see each other and not just keep in touch through texts 😉 .

On Friday afternoon last week, we met at Applebee’s, one of our old haunts. In this photo-booth series we took the first, middle and last photos then. The 2nd photo was about 13 years ago (?) at Applebee’s. The 4th photo was taken four years ago right before I retired.


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As Rebecca points out we look even better now! Heck ya! We’ve gone through trials, tribulations and lots of love and laughter to come to this point! xoxoxo BFF…

I’m so glad you stopped by. How big is your gang? Are you solitary like me or part of a loving tribe of buds, or somewhere between?

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet


52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.

 

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7/52 Portraits – Love of My Life

It’s week 7 of 52 weekly portraits. The subject? The love of my life!


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It’s my goofy motorcycle riding engineer. My Prince Charming in overalls. My kind, generous, irreverent husband Tim.

We met on Chemistry.com. On our second date Tim took me on my first motorcycle ride… at a stop sign on the ride I desperately asked if there was booze where we were going… we didn’t have another date for 2 years… 😉 I invite you to read the post Biker Chick which I wrote in 2013 that highlights our early romance.

This is a typical photo of us… why have a serious portrait when we can be the goofy kids we truly are?

I’m so glad you stopped by. Serious portrait? Goofy portrait? or something in between for you and your sweetie?

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet


52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.

6/52 Portraits – Coffee or Tea?

It’s week 6 of 52 weekly self portraits.

Coffee or Tea or?? Showcase your love for that one drink that helps carry you through your day.

Coffee for me please! I’ll have an iced mocha… Low acid coffee with stevia chocolate syrup and a splash of rice milk.


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Here I am perusing my extensive Coffee Coffee & More Coffee Pinterest board remembering when I could drink all those steaming hot designer coffee drinks without irritating my tummy. A year plus of pain meds for my osteoarthritis before my hip replacement left my stomach pretty sensitive. Nothing serious, but not interested in making it worse! 😉 Oh and red wine is off the menu for the same reason, that’s been replaced by fizzy water. Ce la vie!

At least I’ve found a coffee hack that works! And it’s better for the budget!

What do you love to drink? Can you get it commercially or do you have your own recipe?

It’s nice this week not to be going through a catharsis with my self portraits! Phew. Until next week…

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

5/52 Portraits – Family Ties

It’s week 5 of 52 weekly self portraits.

The prompt I chose this week is a little out-of-order from the 52portraits class. Our wonderful hostess Vanessa said to go with whatever we wanted though since the experience of the weekly portraits is our own.

I went to Portland, Oregon last Friday to visit my son, daughter-in-law and 19 month old granddaughter, Emma. My mom (Emma’s great grammie) flew in from Colorado for the weekend as well. We spent a lovely time getting to know Emma and catching up on her folks’ lives. Mom and I stayed with Emma’s other grandmother, Nana (I’m Mimi). She was a wonderful hostess and we felt welcome and spoiled.


My son Ian, granddaughter Emma and me.

My son Ian, granddaughter Emma and me.


 

What is special about this picture? It’s just a family selfie right? Not exactly. The prompt is Family Ties, the good the bad and everything in between.

My son and daughter-in-law and I had been estranged for a few years when he and my daughter-in-law gave birth to this darling girl.  I visited them once, six weeks after she was born (see my post Emma Meets Me, her Mimi), and we met as wary acquaintances with this sparkling soul as mediator. That year was a terrible one for me. I felt my age keenly when I became a grandmother, and I was faced with my part in the two-year hostile silence between us. Then I lost my father to a terminal illness four months later. In the middle was a bleak temporary job to pay off debts. I felt like I was in purgatory. When Tim and I retired to our ranch in McCall, ID in May 2015 I began to find bits and pieces of happiness each day and got back to an even keel.

I wish this photo included my mom as I adore her and her presence made the reunion rich for us all, and easier for me. My son is an amazingly intelligent and creative man … and intense and challenging. Honestly? Sometimes I feel intimidated around him. I was so glad my mom was there to help me face that and let it go, for the weekend at least.

I know I’m rambling on, but this portrait project is a journey of self discovery and family ties are meant to be explored and faced.

The star of the show of course is darling Emma. We danced together (she loves turning around in circles until she gets dizzy), and we colored together. I felt privileged when she graced me (and Mom) with cuddles and hugs. She is bursting with language! She even called me Mimi, my heart flipped 😀 .

So the 5th portrait of my year is about family bonds reestablished as generations came together. The beauty of this new Emma soul has great healing power.


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Thank you my friends for taking this journey of self-discovery with me. It’s not always easy to share this stuff, especially when some of the content involves others! xoxoxox

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet


52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.

4/52 Portraits – My Many Lives

It’s week 4 of 52 weekly self portraits.


Both images taken with iPhone 6s and edited in Enlight.

Both images taken with iPhone 6s and edited in Enlight.


I have lived many lives, and had many loves. I have flown dragons over the skies of Pern, helped a Dalesman birth a cow and discovered the key to a secret garden. Tonight the magic of Louise Penny’s words brings me into the winter world of Three Pines to help Chief Inspector Gamache solve mysteries of the flesh and of the heart. I live not only through the brilliant characters but revel in their relationships.

Do you think my stalwart companions take those journeys with me? Or do they know that soon my eyes will grow heavy and I’ll take up the adventure again tomorrow.

Thank you my friends for taking this journey of self-discovery with me. You guys rock! xoxoxox

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet


52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.

3/52 Portraits – Lost Love

It’s week 3 of 52 weekly portraits …

What do I miss from my past?

I mourn the ability to dance with freedom and grace as I once could. Years of arthritis, a hip replacement and now a wanky back hobble me to the ground when I used to be able to fly.


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I wrote the above intro 2 days ago. While I was writing the rest of this post today, it occurred to me that there is deeper significance to this image. When I was 22, and in college, I played the part of Peter Pan in the University of Colorado’s musical of that name. I was even strapped up in a harness and lifted to fly around the stage. Flying in for a curtain call to a standing ovation was one of the peak experiences of my life.

It is interesting that I used my shadow for the portrait of my mourned ability. Do you remember that Peter Pan came into Wendy’s room looking for his shadow? … the silly thing had become detached somehow. He tried putting it back on with soap among other things but it was Wendy’s common sense and needle and thread that finally re-attached it.

Sobs come as I write this because I realize I have ‘grown up’ like Wendy… all common sense and choosing reality over Neverland, where dreams are born.  And like Wendy, I have lost the ability to fly.

This is a big symbolic realization for me and I don’t think I will find a resolution as I am writing this post. I want to dance again, and allow my body to move freely with the wind. Will I find some fairy dust when I return to the fairy circle on our ranch to help me? Will I shed all the dark and heavy energy stuck to my emotional and physical bodies? Will I allow myself to let go and let Goddess?

I think I will somehow, since I am on the right path… and of course clapping my hands because I DO believe in fairies.


Me as Peter Pan in CU’s production of Peter Pan in 1978.

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Thank you my friends for taking this journey of self-discovery with me. It is powerful to have witnesses. xoxoxox

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet


52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.

2/52 – Truth Seeker

Here is my 2nd of 52 weekly portraits … Show my super power.

This was a difficult prompt for me… The assignment wasn’t to illustrate the power I’d LIKE to have, but one that I already have (to the nth degree because I’ve been bitten by a radioactive spider). I had to ask my BFF Rebecca to help me figure out my super power. Here is what she wrote:

You have the White* personality powers of calmness and deeply listening. You have the Sag ability to see the truth and express it soundly and clearly (and kindly) especially when someone (like Yellow* me) is having a meltdown. You truly are the seeker of truth and even when you think you have found the truth you still question it in detail and find the truth of the truth…..until you see another truth. (*From the Color Code.)

Your philosophies are very deep and you are able to express them clearly.  To the point of making me cry.  In a good way.  So “inspiring” is good but you’re more than that.  It goes deeper and I can’t find the word to describe the feeling I have about it. It’s the truth-seeking you do and how you bring it into the light for others to see.

truth seeker3So I decided my super power is Truth Seeker. In this photo I’m looking to the light and finding the truth in my heart. That IS a toy bow… so go ahead and laugh as I portray the Sag archer with a toy… not sure how many targets I could hit with that! But Source truly enjoys a good laugh.

What super power would I like to have? Communication with Mother Earth and her children… talk with the animals and trees, speak to the weather, ask the water to run… you get the picture. Oh, and I can fly.

What super power would you like to have? And more puzzling, what super power do you already have that you might not have given that status?


aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

1/52 – Through the Looking Glass

 


Here is my first of 52 portraits… 2016 the year I turn 60… the year I embrace my priestess power… embarking on personal recovery through art journaling, self portraits, spiritual studies, emotional accountability, creative messiness, self-love and being open to the unknown. Meghan aka Starfire delving into her deep magic…. this portrait is me sans makeup, sans photographic editing, sans artifice… showing my shadow side and seeing the light and dark as one face.


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I am also seeing myself “through the looking-glass”… perhaps there is a reason that the book Alice in Wonderland terrified me as a child… perhaps I can allow my world to be topsy-turvy this year.

This year in #52portraits I am not committing to a certain camera, or a certain day of the week to post, but I AM committing to follow each prompt each week… I am also allowing myself to change my mind anytime I want. 😉

aka Meghan aka FireBonnet

Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet


52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.

 

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