This week was perfect timing for this 11th of 52 weekly self portraits.
Roots… do I like to roam the world? or am I happy on my patch of land on it.
Hubby and I just returned to our ranch in McCall, Idaho after five months living in our motor home in Bakersfield, California. Although I had a wonderfully creative five months in Southern California, I am deliciously happy to be HOME! I am not comfortable as a nomad. I am at home in my forest, rooted in good company with our grand trees.
Our motor home is parked near our ranch house and I’m using it as an art studio/office now. Because they are so close to each other I was able to capture this shot of myself between the mobile home and the ‘rooted’ home. I am giving a STOP hand to the RV and a thumbs up to the home, with a forest backdrop.
I’m so glad you stopped by. Are you a nomad? or a home body? City, town or country? I am always enriched when you comment. Have a great day!
Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet
52 Portraits is a photography course in self discovery by Vanessa and is hosted through Get Messy Art Journal. The course is a year long journey in using photography and words to turn your reflection inward and capture who you are at this phase in your life. Learn more and join the course here.
It’s week six in the Season of Happy at Get Messy Art Journal. This week I’ve created two very different double pages to express my happiness. It’s the last week of this season. Our next one begins on April 4 and I’m looking forward to finding out the theme. At the end of this post is an explanation of art journaling and the Get Messy experience!
The first prompt I did was Happiness is… that was simple! Happiness for me is walking the woods and fields of our Idaho mountain property. All the photos are mine taken on the ranch.
The second prompt I took on was art journaling my first happy memory. Well, I have no memories of my early childhood so I made up stories from two photos of me when I was four.
In the left hand panel I’m dressed up in mom’s shoes and some fabric I’ve wrapped around myself.
I was wearing roller skates in this page. I wonder if I imagined myself looking just like that girl on her skates. I had fun getting a 1960’s feel for these pages.
Can you feel the difference in energy between the ranch page and the 1960’s page? I love how the colors and lines and texture or lack of helped create two totally different moods.
Do you have a favorite? Right now I’m going with the red one… it lifts my spirits and excites me to look at it.
Have a wonderful weekend my friends!
Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet
Get Messy Art Journal is an art journaling program that is a school, art playground and family. We are a group of like minded art journalers who have come together under this art form to learn, share, practice our skills and push past our creative limits with hopes to inspire. Our community values consistent creating, encouragement and support and trying new things. We would love to have you join us as a member of Get Messy Art Journal.
What exactly is art journaling?
Ambiguous answer: whatever you want it to be! More specific answer: Art journaling is a notebook that you fill with drawings, paintings, thoughts, words, lyrics, photos, magazine cutouts and random ephemera from your life and events. It can be where you practice art techniques or sketch out big projects. It can be your journal where all things creative + all things emotional intersect. You can put in pretty things you find and want to keep or it can be where you collect and process through your deepest, darkest thoughts. It is where art and journaling meet. Need more of a visual example? Visual answer: look here.
Here is my 2nd of 52 weekly portraits … Show my super power.
This was a difficult prompt for me… The assignment wasn’t to illustrate the power I’d LIKE to have, but one that I already have (to the nth degree because I’ve been bitten by a radioactive spider). I had to ask my BFF Rebecca to help me figure out my super power. Here is what she wrote:
You have the White* personality powers of calmness and deeply listening. You have the Sag ability to see the truth and express it soundly and clearly (and kindly) especially when someone (like Yellow* me) is having a meltdown. You truly are the seeker of truth and even when you think you have found the truth you still question it in detail and find the truth of the truth…..until you see another truth. (*From the Color Code.)
Your philosophies are very deep and you are able to express them clearly. To the point of making me cry. In a good way. So “inspiring” is good but you’re more than that. It goes deeper and I can’t find the word to describe the feeling I have about it. It’s the truth-seeking you do and how you bring it into the light for others to see.
So I decided my super power is Truth Seeker. In this photo I’m looking to the light and finding the truth in my heart. That IS a toy bow… so go ahead and laugh as I portray the Sag archer with a toy… not sure how many targets I could hit with that! But Source truly enjoys a good laugh.
What super power would I like to have? Communication with Mother Earth and her children… talk with the animals and trees, speak to the weather, ask the water to run… you get the picture. Oh, and I can fly.
What super power would you like to have? And more puzzling, what super power do you already have that you might not have given that status?
Starfire aka Meghan aka FireBonnet
Hi I’m Meghan. I’m also known on social media as FireBonnet and 2catsandacattledog‘s mom.
What the heck am I doing here as Starfire? I already have two blogs and keeping them vital is exhausting… and I’m starting a new one? Am I crazy?
Probably… after all I’m a bipolar, pagan, artistic empath, and if that’s not enough I’m a redhead.
I need a place to blow off steam where I don’t worry about SEO or the best way to market my book or my art or how many followers I have or if anyone actually reads anything I write. And lots of times I’m an emotional mess and I’d like to talk about it without then having to see the bright side (both of my other blogs are feel-good, bright side of life kinds of blogs).
I’m embarking on a year of art journaling which will be art therapy and that can get pretty messy… and it SHOULD get messy… I need to allow myself freedom to feel whatever I’m feeling without judgement. And I want to talk about things that aren’t mainstream…
The nitty-gritty about me:
- I’m bipolar with attendant social anxiety. I am on the depressive side of manic-depression. I’ve taken medication for 19 years… religiously.
- I am 59 years old… 2 grown sons born 12 years apart to the day (the second one in the backseat of a car). I have 1 daughter-in-law and 1 grand-daughter.
- I am an artist. I have my BFA in Studio Arts from Wilkes-University in Pa. I majored in ceramics with a second focus in 2D design. I did nothing with my degree until the past few years. I was an administrative analyst for my day job for years and years.
- I became a widow in 2006. I was the major bread-winner for many years with my first husband and then a single working mom until 2012 when my youngest graduated high school. My late husband was a spendthrift and I had nightmares for years that he was still alive and had access to my checking account, credit cards and retirement fund. I still have dreams where I have to tell him to leave because he’s dead.
- I married the love of my life in 2012 – we met online on Chemistry.com… the story is here. We are both retired (ok he still works as a consultant 5-30 hrs. a week) and live on a 22 acre ranch in McCall, Id and a motor home wherever it takes us (now Bakersfield, Ca).
- I had my left hip replaced in 2013 (osteoarthritis). All is good with that! You’d never know anything was wrong now.
- However, a year ago my lower back started to bother me and now I have chronic pain again and I’m tired of it. I decided to delve inward to see what some of the causative emotional factors might be for this repeat of chronic joint pain. Check out Louise Hay…
- I follow the teachings of Abraham-Hicks. I’ve studied with Jean Houston. I believe in the Law of Attraction. I believe in fairies, and the conscious energy of all organic beings on this planet. I can feel that energy. I reverently listen to the Dalai Lama. I talk to my inner child, goddess archetypes and even Archangels when the energy is right.
- I am an empath which means I feel others’ energy/emotion as if it were mine… unless I learn not to and get rid of the gunk I’m already carrying. Going to Disneyland is overwhelming, going to Wal-Mart is painful, being totally by myself (with the exception of animals) is regenerating. Being in nature is cleansing bliss. I’m working to get a handle on all of this. I’m reading the work of Dr. Micheal Smith now.
- I’ve had an eating disorder since I was a teenager. At that time it manifested as bulimia. When I was treated for my bipolar, the eating disorder subsided. However, until last year I still had an on again off again horrible body image and almost everything I ate or drank that wasn’t in my “ok” range gave me guilt. This past year I’ve consciously chosen to let my body be itself… no dieting or berating it for being what I considered ‘overweight’. I am within the range of healthy for my age. It is a struggle but it’s now or never… time to get to the bottom of it (big bottom no less, giggle). I’ve bought clothes I feel sassy and comfy in so I am less likely to have an excuse to hate my body. Most days and weeks lately I’ve been ok with my body.. in fact the other night I dreamed I was going around naked and it didn’t bother me at all! Huge strides.
If ANY of the above resonates with you, I urge you to keep reading my blog.
I want to be honest and forthright about my emotional, physical and spiritual recovery in these pages/posts. I’d love to have you comment, but I’m absolutely ok with you just listening. These words are first for me. As I learn to love all of me, I can’t help but love all of you. (PS… feel free to email me through the Contact Me tab above.)
And hey! It’s the year of the Red Fire Monkey… I was born during a Red Fire Monkey year so I have come full circle. All the odds are in my favor to have a terrific and transformative 2016.
Oh, and I reserve the right to be totally confusing in this blog. Comments are for asking questions and having discussions right?
And I will probably swear too. F**K YA!
Meghan aka FireBonnet about.me
I finished an art journal double page expressing my ‘happy place’ on Wednesday, although I worked on it for 3 days.
“I grew up in a forest. It’s like a room. It’s protected. Like a cathedral… it is a place between heaven and earth.” – Anselm Kiefer
I grew up on a 20 acre farm in the White Mountains of New Hampshire and our forest was my favorite place. I now live on a 22 acre ranch in the mountains of Idaho (McCall). The woods on our ranch are magical and the two nature photos in the art journal page are from that ranch. The pic of my shoes and socks? Still a little mysterious to me why they are meant to be on the page, but my personal theme this year is duality so… The woods ground me and maybe my feet symbolize that. And yes I often wear socks that don’t match. (All three photos are mine.)
Right now I am using paper as the main medium for my art pages. I see a lot of other people using paints but I’ve never been much of a painter. I predict that will change as the year of Get Messy progresses.
The second ‘happy’ page I made is another in the series of my spirit animals (see Bear here). This week I was led along a fringe of trees in my RV park by a lovely little hummingbird and since she is one of my spirit teachers, I was inspired to make this page.
I love to color with my Prismacoler art markers and this particular coloring book is Art Nouveau Figurative Designs by Alphonse Marie Mucha rendered by Ed Sibbett, Jr. The drawing and saying about the hummingbird is from the Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams and David Carson. I love the pink material I used around the woman and bird… it came with a bouquet of fresh flowers my hubby gave me last week.
Since I love of my photo apps, I played with both the images of the pages and came up with these:
The inverse colors of the forest art journal page using Enlight for iPhone. I think it’s awesome! Talk about duality.
Block print filter of hummingbird art journal page using Enlight app for iPhone. The block print look seems to be well suited to the Art Nouveau art.
I have three different art journals ready for pages. This particular one is 11×9 hard cover Pentalic art paper book. My others are ‘found’ books and I’m looking forward to filling these as well. Blank pages used to intimidate me, now they are inviting.
Have a great weekend my friends and fellow Get Messians.
aka Meghan aka FireBonnet
What exactly is art journaling?
Ambiguous answer: whatever you want it to be! More specific answer: Art journaling is a notebook that you fill with drawings, paintings, thoughts, words, lyrics, photos, magazine cutouts, random ephemera from your life and events. It can be where you practice art techniques or sketch out big projects. It can be your journal where all things creative + all things emotional intersect. You can put in pretty things you find and want to keep or it can be where you collect and process through your darkest thoughts. It is where art and journaling meet.
Lauren Hooper and Caylee Greyvenstein founders of Get Messy an Art Journal Challenge